Heartbroken Girl

*Cough* PEOPLE OF PANEM!!!!! I have only read up to part three of the last hunger games book, so this is why I literally almost fainted from Finnick's death. PLEASE. DO NOT KILL ME FOR NOT READING THE WHOLE THING. s'il vous plait? Merci. GUYSSS!!!!! MY DAD SAID THE MOST HILARIOUS THING EVA!! Mkay, so, after watching the mockingjay part 2, (Although it really should have been tilted 2 and 3 -_-) and me shaking learning the fact she married Peeta and Finnick's death. Basically what I did before Finnick died was whisper, "I love you" Which was ironic, since I never actually loved him before. At all. I literally started to shake like crazy, and cried when he died. When Katniss said she loved Peeta, I wanted to throw something at her face. WTHECK?!?!?!?! KATNISSSS?!!?!?! I mean at least an apology to Gale would have made me happy. BUT HOW DID THEY END THE MOVIE?!! No apology. Zilch. Zero. Nada. So, lemme get to the funny part. I was going insane in the car, and break...

OH MY STARS GUYS!! THANK YOU FOR ALL THE VIEWS :DDDD IM SO HAPPY!! HERE'S WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE! *realizes caps lock is on* ;-; Thanks so much!! And for your reward!! A story I wrote a few hours ago! Camera Girl, By ~ Niah∞Pe She couldn't remember how she came here, or why she was even here. She woke up to vast darkness, only one light she could follow. She walked towards the light and saw a silhouette of a man in the shadow of the light behind him. But her dream always ended there, she never could find out who this man was. Silvia walked around the room, trying to figure out what her dream meant. It was bothering her to much. She just didn't want to keep wondering. Silvia got dressed, and skipped breakfast. She grabbed her camera and ran to the city. She stopped to take a picture of a couple standing nearby. She ran further, searching for anything to take a picture of. She saw a butterfly, and tried to take a picture of it, before she could take a picture the ...

Hey guys!! So I changed the background again. I know, I know, confusion. But, its so freaking pretty!!! XDD Mkay, that's all I have to say. Bye!!

Okay!! So, I finished reading 'The Heir' and....:33333333333 YES!! JUST YES!!! SHE IS FINALLY SAYING SHE WILL GET MARRIED!!! UGH!! THE SHIPS!! THERE'S TO MANY I CANT SEE THE OCEAN!! People I ship with Eadlyn: Kyle, Erik, and Henri! So, I will make a dream cast after the next book comes out :DD So just wait! BTW: THE NEXT BOOK COVER IS SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL!!! I just love that purple! So sparkly, and strong. 

I CAN NOT STOP FANGIRLING OVER THIS BOOK SERIES!!!!!! IF YOU ARE READING THIS YOU HAVE TO READ 'THE SELECTION' ITS THE BEST. BOOK. EVER. SO!! I made a dream cast for the first series. Do you like it?!?! I mean, apparently the next series said that Aspen got even handsomer with age. :3333 Aspen.....:333

I know that finding your partner in life is important. And that people can't wait to get married. But I never want to get married. Now, if you think that you certainly want to get married, do not read this. I for one, am freaking scared of marriage and what comes after. I don't mind getting married, I just don't want to have children, or have sex. Sex is supposed to be normal, but for me that just terrifies me. I told my parents one day about a dream I had, I said it was a nightmare. I had 3 children, and was married. My parents thought I was nutters. Sometimes I wish I wasn't born. Because I know how I was created in the world I live in, just freaks me out. I hate that men have an urge to have sex, they me be your perfect man. And they may wait till marriage, but I don't want it ever. I know when I was little, we would talk about having children. But its all to much to take in. I also have a great fear of pregnant people. Its scary. I can't look at a person who...

Why hello there you fine looking bunch!! Imma be talking bout some serious stuff here. Prepare for a funeral you all, because this is gonna get sad. Last night I had a dream about 2 or 3 times, every night, repetitively. Now, I had a friend named Mia, she was basically like a little sister to me. I used to play with her after church, I haven't seen her for two years, so I don't understand why I started to just think about her. So there I was, in my dream, possibly on the second floor or higher of this odd building. My dad was their wearing a suit, and my dogs that I used to own 2 years ago, were also there. That was weird, because my grandma takes care of them now far away from where I live. Anyway, the surrounding area was like antique, creepily old. Then Mia's grandma and brother came up the stairs and were greeted by my dogs. I woke up, and I asked a couple people what this would mean. I came to the conclusion, that my friend, was dead. I'm not completely sure, but w...

Hey guys....a serious of random thoughts to my dear no one... I will love you, wherever you are, whoever you are. I pledge to be loyal if you pledge to do the same. I will care for you, and I will love you like we were meeting all over again. If you are my other half, I just want you to know that I hope you are ready, I hope you know that God is the only person who can control the end and the beginning of us. I wait patiently for you, every day I sit, waiting for the day when I will see you. If you're out there, I hope you know that we are only waiting for each other. And when the time comes, we will find each other. I will care for you dearly, and cherish ever single moment with you. I just hope you know that I will always think of you, my dear no one. Uhhhh...to tired to think....sorry... I wait for the day that I will find you, the day I will be ready to see you. The day that God will open up the doors to my heart for you. And when God takes the key and unlocks my heart, my ...

OH MY STARS!! I have readers of my blog in Russia! XD That's amazing :33 And everyone else ou there thanks for stopping by :P Love you cupcakes!

Heyo peeps! I may have forgotten to mention that I am a bookworm ;-; Don't kill me '-' BOOKS4LYFE! It is literally impossible to live without them. Literally. Impossible. Reply to this post telling me about your favorite books, and what they're about. I'll see to it that I read it, as long as its appropriate :DD Bye, my cupcakes!

She was a plain and simple girl. She never wanted to stand out. She never wanted to grow-up. That was why she loved Peter-pan so much, because she loved to think that if she wished hard enough she would never have to grow up. She never wanted to talk about boys. It made her feel awkward, like it was another part of her trying to become a teenager. She would not accept that she was in fact not getting younger. She had the perfect grades. If she ever got 1 question wrong she would not be happy about it. She was a good student, but she wasn't maturing fast enough like the other girls she knew. She didn't tell them to stop having fun talking about mature things, like make up, or boys. She just silently left, until you realized she was gone. She only liked this one boy though. She would never tell anyone. Sometimes she scolded herself for blushing when she mentioned him. Up till this day, she is still embarrassed about the time they got married when they were little. She wondered...

Hey!! So I just thought I would tell you a little something. :D You see, I liked this guy a lot once, and he inspired me to cry all night and write poems. D: I stopped thinking about it to much, and moved on. But you see, you never really move on. You simply just push it farther away. Its always there, every time you think of it. Fresh as the day you started crying :'( Sometimes I like to re-live those memories, remember how much I wanted to close any physical distant between us and just be close to him. Or even maybe get a kiss on the cheek. I will consider that as a first kiss. :DD I have no dirty thoughts o-o I only go to areas of cheek kissing and hugging. Beyond that? Nu-uh. I just like to remember his smile, or his laughter. The times when I wished I had said something. And all the, 'What if's?' Get bigger, until finally I just can't take the overwhelming amount of feels! And to know that he liked me back, made my heart stop. *more than usually ;)* My dad ment...

Do you ever feel alone? No one their to talk to. No one to share a story with. No one to have fun with. Your just alone...I feel like that a lot. I hate not having any friends at all. I don't know why I can't find anyone. I've never had this situation before. Let me tell you that it sucks. Who wants to be by themselves? My dad keeps saying that I have him, and God. Of course I know that! But its not the same. I tried to talk to my dad, all he said was he was a loner for a long time and he was fine. How is that supposed to encoruage me? You can't tell someone that. That they will be alone. Alone for a long time. For goodness sake! I can't talk to anyone, I just have this stupid blog that no one reads. I pretends I'm writing to someone, but I'm not. My uncles prayed that I would have friends, but my dad gets upset!!! WHAT THE HECK?!!?? How is that ever fair?? So now that I'm socially incapable of not having friends, my dad doesn't want my uncles to pra...

I'm serious. It does suck a lot. Like, why did God have to make us suffer? :O I just realized something, if we never felt pain before...then puberty might not have sucked so much...Was Adam a baby when he was born? Or did God just make a grown man...? o-o The unknown mystery. xD Mkay, back to the topic of puberty sucks. One word to describe it all: Pain. My teeth are going to give me more headaches than ever before. STAHP FALLING OUT! My dad is gonna start teasing me when it falls out, like so, "Oh!! Look! Its a granny!!" While he smiles and points at my teeth. ;-; Really dad? Not funny. At all. Your turn, tell us about your sucky puberty experiences at the moment, or however old you are '-' Mkay!! Bye!

OH MY STARS!! I JUST FOUND OUT THAT THIS BOY I LIKED 1 1/2 YEARS AGO LIKED ME!!!!!! *dies* *hyperventilates* I can't even!! :333 But how did he like me, and another girl at the same time? Maybe I shouldn't have freaked out about her.....Maybe he really liked me instead....:33333 I JUST CANT!!!! HELP!!! OH MY STARS!!! He was such a good friend...but having a crush on someone who eventually starts to like you back......*dies again* *sigh* I wish I still talked to him after I moved away...I miss him a lot now. D: Hahahaha I just had to write this down. If anyone reads this they should really start giving suggestions, because I feel so alone here ;-; *shouts* HELLO?! *echo* -_- I guess I am alone here *-*

Hey! I removed this post for privacy purposes, sorry if you were reading it D: If you want to read it just reply to this post and I'll share it to you :) Mkay, bye!!

Hey! I'm sure most of you are wondering, what's your story? Well, I'll tell you soon. I just haven't found the time....But I'll tell you why my life is this way, and why I'm so deep sometimes xD. I had quite a hard life, but luckily my parents were always loving to me. I think my mom was the one who really needed all the love. So, stay tuned for the very, very, very long blog post!! :DD See ya!!

I AM SO EXCITED FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!! I already have like this giant list of presents xD I can't wait!!! But we all know that Christmas isn't just about presents. :D So, I updated my background, and changed the color for the blog title. If you were wondering ;) Honestly, I feel like I' writing to myself, well I am, but I guess some people read this stuff. I guess...So here's a Christmas story I was going to submit for a contest, but never finished. But you can pretty much guess what happens next ;) Also, my friend read it, and did some massive editing jobs. I suck at punctuation. :P Story Time :D I woke up to the smell of the sweet cinnamon smell of a candle that was burning. I was glad it was the weekend, if it wasn't I could've sworn I would break down in tears at the very sound of, "Your holiday is over." Of course Christmas was in a week, and I had quite a lot of time before then. I had already collected the gifts and hid them in my closet. The...

Why are we always ignored? When are feelings are hurt, and we need help the most, why does it feel like no one is there? It feels like your in a dessert, and you stand there calling for help, and yet no one seems to hear a single thing you say. You could be in a huge crowd of people and cry for help, but people will just brush you off their shoulder like your nothing. Like your a piece of dirt, why do I feel so small. Like an atom inside an atom that just keeps getting smaller. What is life when you feel like you have nothing to live for, when you feel so sad and empty. When you feel like no one will love you, no one will care. Where is that boy who will keep me company? Or even a best friend who will always be there for me? I have none of these things, I don't have a friend in the world who really cares about me. I am alone, a lifeless being as I am. With no purpose. I wake up, do school, go to bed. But whats the point? I feel like there is no point to anything anymore, like I...

Hewo!! So I'm gonna talk about some deep stuff here, deep. This has been on my mind for a while and I just wanted to write it down before I forgot. Here it goes, What's the point of living? We must live for God, and walk with him. You must have hope in life, and live life to its full purpose. Why do we live? We live because we have the will to, we live because we still have hope. Everyone has hope, I'm sure all of you do. Even if its just the tiniest sliver of it. Why don't we just kill ourselves? By killing yourself you will burn in eternal hell, now, I don't know about you but that does not sound fun. You must wait for God to take your life, because he has the authority over it. People usually kill themselves because they are selfish, they always think, 'Why do I have to live?' 'What is the point in me living?' You see? Just themselves, if you're considering suicide, don't do it. Resolve your problems, go the police, get counselin...